sicko. freak

damn.
stuck at hm now.
sick since sat actually
but aiyerr. when im not spp to be in sch, i was.
when im spp to be, im not!
theres cme test tdy n edinna just msged to say
CANNOT RETAKE?!
=X
wwwwhaaat.
i feel like crying now ok.
so am i spp to study or not!?!

argh.
ytd was so not gd!
pushed myself to sch cox its wed!
n eh, had a feeling ill be happy to see her in sch
LOL
ha & true enough,
during silent reading she walked to our area twice (:
pretttty as usual.
but em, till recess things were not gd alr.
forgot n drank barley w chilli.
ahh. i forgot im not allowed to swallow cold drinks with chili dwn.
nvm.
n then, chem`hcl`lit`chapel`eng
I WAS IN GREAT PAIN.
tremendous pain.
=/
tummy ache to be exact.
cldnt stand during chapel but i forced myself laa if not rebecca how!
haha they kept telling me not to go for massprayercell.
but luckily i persisted n went.
n heres the magical thing,
the min i stepped into the hall, the pain was gone!
(;
serious. im so serious!
yes and whoo. worked wonders!
prayed for handbells guitar etc.
kept asking sarah pray for us haha
AND A... ANDDD!!
YY WAS STANDING BEHIND! ((:
she kept praying with my ahma.
haha like for abt 10mins still praying.
so faithful(:
gd time honouring God.

felt so relieved aft tt.
i cld like at least walk like a human ma.. haha
(: then on the bus, wenxin passed me the tape recorder!
((:
evri wed ill get to listen to her voicee.
yoohoo.

spent time doing pw.
wonder if they did..

whole night listened to taperecorder.
yy was stressing them abt pw!
):
i feel so guilty now.
HOW NOW HOW NOW!
ahh, terrible.

checked my amaths ca ytd on pts.
s u c k s.
ohmy. really stared for so long n kept rubbing my eyes.
i feel like banging the wall.
n breaking my legs.
chopping my fingers.
speechless.
im not fit to think abt her now.
not fit
..
its 1 of the reasons i dont wanna go sch today

i think.
i.
want.
to.
slp.
again.

(:

// - im only one person 'but for you; im torn into two. *